im bored. im sooooo busy doing nothing. lalalalalala. yay, i finally can watch Drillbit Taylor. was actually watching it that day until suddenly the current terputus. sheeeesh. damn no current for a few hours. but managed to watch it yesterday weeeeeee. hahahahaha damn funny the movie. niceeee. i watch tv all day. i watch ben10, drake and josh, pucca, mtv, naruto...... ohyeah! theres this show on cartoon network, The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack. weeee! flapjack is so cuuuuteeee!! and his mama, bubbie is the whale. haha he always follow Keknuckles(i dont know how to spell) around on adventures. haha u should watch it. soooo cuuuuteeee hehe. every friday 7pm on channel 616. haha lol, im just too bored.

Holidays are soooooo DAMN boring man. sheeeeesh. i hate holidays. i hate it i hate it i hate it. ugh. my daily schedule is wake up, watch tv, eat something, onlinee, brushing teeth not included. hehe. yeah thats about it. ive been backsliding for a moment there, and now im trying to catch up. it deserves a new start. sehh. lol


went to Pulau Bunga Raya and Pulau Gayana yesterday with family members and church cell members. weeeeeeee was really exited cos we get to sit on the boat at night. haha. wasnt actually a speed boat but it was nice. seriously. when the wind goes thru your hair and your feet, theres no other feeling in the world that you wanna feel. haha. the moment we reach pulau bunga raya, kena serve drinks lehhh. haha sedap gila that drink and they also gave this wet handkerchief which was so nice smelling. we sat on the buggey and the tour guide drove us around. it was soooo romantic. should go there on your honeymoon. the room is nice, got air cond, outside got swimming pool. but after checking out everything we had to leave to pulau Gayana to have dinner. pulau Gayana was damn nice too. it was evening and the moon was in the sky. it was soooo beautiful. id rather stay there forever than in the city. hehe the food was nice. took some photos. they're on facebook already. hehe

not enough time to blog about other stuff, but ill be back. kalu rajin hehe.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ok sudah us. no more hiding from each other. wahhahahahahahahaha. gila hard leh wanna solve that prob but alls well now. and i dont EVER wanna go thru that again.

well u might also have asked this before but wthehell happened? i dont know. when i look at the pictures we used to take, those memories come back but everythings so different right now. i dont know why are you avoiding me, what you think of me but whatever it is, i hope you're happy with your life. and to you, i know ur avoiding me, i know why. you dont have to tell me, i can see it. and to tell you the truth, i missed you. i might have been pissed at you. not that i want to, im just mad cos you're not there.






what i used to post here is officially gone. for i had a fucking nightmare where he saw this and was really pissed at me and wanted me gone forever from his life. so now its gone.

when can we be like we used to be? when can we end this? when can we laugh again like we used to. im so stressed out just thinking of our problems that hasn't been solved. im so fucking stressed out just seeing you laugh without me. i so fucking stressed out to see you walk by me just like that. im so fucking stressed out to know that you're in front of me, but the person standing in front of me aint you. im so fucking stressed out when i feel happy i will think of you and eventually feel miserable again. i miss you so much that i hate myself for missing you. sometimes just thinking of you makes me moodless all day. i can do whatever i want and i dont care what people think or say about me when i think of you. i dont give a damn about what people think of me when i am thinking of you. i dont give a damn about anything when i think of you. i need you. i miss you more than you think. you were the only one there for me when i was alone.

sorry for not updating. more like a time out. wasnt really in the mood to write any nonsense here. currently watching sanay wala. eventho it was on a really long time ago, its really romantic. catching up on life, things changed alot. well, it always does. dont matter how much you hate it and dont want it to happen. shits.

joined the church dance. going to move in soon to the new church building. kinda excited. like pastor said, its a miracle. God is with us all the way to the end. even if sometimes we feel like the world is against us, he's always there. God puts challenges in our lives and we have to go thru it with faith in believing that God is there. its really hard. sighs.

whatthehell happened. its like everythings so f*cking broken. i hate this part so much. i hate the tears. i hate the hurt that everyone is going thru. i loved you so much as a sister, a friend. i dont know what happened, why it happened, how it happened. but whatever happened, all thats left is memories. i cant stop you, i cant change you, i cant ask you, i cant talk to you, i cant have anything to do with you anymore. i cant even laugh with you no more. i just miss you. i dont hate you. you have a special place in my heart as my buddy. but i guess everythings over.

i cant stop crying every nite just knowing how much i miss you. i hope you like your new life. and even if you might hate me, i hope you can be happy. take care of yourself.

finally can online. after two days of working at giant. but i kinda miss there tho. sighs. i miss looking at the ice creams. should do it another time. well, ICE QUEEN here didnt expect anything to happen but it did. its just weird. thats all for now. not really in the mood to blog.